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English Landscape III © 2000

As promised last week, here is the third and final work in the landscape series. Obligatory Technical Information: The base media is viscosity monoprint. Details were added with colored pencil and oil pastel. Color may shift depending on your monitor settings.

Timing can be such a beast. So often in my life, things seem to happen all at once. In some ways, I function better under high levels of stress, but usually there is a price. In the end, I come crashing down in need of solace. It’s like a runner’s high functioning under the pressure, and when it’s over I’m empty. I’m not talking about drama. Drama is something I don’t need. I’ve spent wasted enough of my life picking up the pieces of someone else’s drama. I’m not interested in any to call my own.

Circumstances have smiled upon us this month, and Mr Hombre has eight days off. We’ve made plans to leave town. Provided no one falls and breaks a hip…I know that’s cold. Age related accidents and illnesses have prevented us from going away three times in the past few months. No one chooses to have health related issues, but the correlation between them and his time off is uncanny.

I’m leaving my laptop at home this time. When both of us travel with computers, we tend to behave like roommates instead of lovers. Life in a hotel mirrors life at home. He carries his baggage and I carry mine. It becomes routine and sometimes easier to drift apart. Ironic, since the idea of leaving home is to get away.

I’m not pointing fingers, I’m accepting responsibility for my actions.I’m consumed with engaging in the ongoing dialogue of blog reading and he’s engaged in computer games. Neither of us is keeping up our share of the deal. But drama makes you so fucking tired, and a quiet place to paint is so easy.

Good things happen when I leave the computer at home. I spend more time drawing, I catch up on my reading and I can share a crossword puzzle with the Mister. Of course, the downside is I spend entirely too much time thinking…

This will be a challenge. I’ve grown rather attached to google reader, and I like to know what’s happening. Maybe the Mister will let me borrow his computer if I ask nicely.